November 29, 2017


I read a quote recently that really stuck with me.

"You know what breaks me? When someone is visibly excited about a feeling or an idea or a hope or a risk taken, and they tell you about it but preface it with: 'Sorry, this is dumb but-'.
Don't do that.
I don't know who came here before me, who conditioned you to think you have to apologize or feel obtuse. But not here. Dream so big it's silly. Laugh so hard it's obnoxious. Love so much it's impossible.
And don't you ever feel unintelligent. And don't you ever apologize. And don't you ever shrink so you can squeeze yourself into small places and small minds.
Grow. It's a big world. There's room. You fit. I promise." Owen Lindley

This is the idea I've been trying to cultivate all year. I have always felt small. I am a short person (only 5'2") and I have a small voice. I really am not a loud person and sometimes people don't hear what I have to say. That could be why I love social media - I don't have to yell. 

I have had setbacks and it's still hard for me to put myself out there. It's especially hard when it is about things that mean so much to me. Growth doesn't happen when you are comfortable and I have been anything but comfortable this year. I don't like to talk about myself and showing my work and sewing projects is good and fun until I put it up for sale. Then I can see every mistake and wonder if I should stop altogether (see, setbacks).

I wanted to say thank you to all those who let me talk about all my ideas. I have been unapologetic and felt like I've been annoying. However, I persisted. I feel stronger and proud of myself. It's been a crazy year and I've learned so much.

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